Easy Like Sunday Mornings.

Its kind of odd seeing other people’s blogs or vlogs. We all desire someone to talk to, let alone someone to listen.

I am pulling a all nighter I think since I slept and wasted my Saturday away at home. I really wish I could of went to Crystal’s sorority ball. As gay as that may sound I just need a release from whatever funk I am in. Problemos were not having a car, not having appropriate attire, not having a date. While I can dwell on what I don’t have I should probably focus on what I do have. I do have an amazing mom and me and my little brother are getting closer. As for friends I probably did give Miss a hard time on Friday for not being able to hang out. Other people’s lives do not revolve around me and they never will.

Speaking of Friday the morning was so hectic, nothing was running on time when it comes to bus travel and everything else. Saw a chick on the bus that had the same facial features as Mayra. When I stopped to think about it I probably know them too well to ever forget them. Oh well. I felt good donating my blood although for some reason I was more paranoid about things going wrong. Nothing did but I also kept thinking I should probably sell my plasma to help me in my current situation but then I realized I don’t feel like being a bodily fluid prostitute. I’d rather have the peace of mind of trying to maintain at least a small resemblance of non-capitalism in medicine. More people should donate it would really make a difference, especially AB+ people like me. We have universal plasma which means every time I donate I have the potential to save 3 lives :) a good feeling. On my way to Step Practice there was a really cute random white girl at the bus stop I was at on 23rd Ave n Bethany. She was cute but for some reason I am so impartial to white girls, European or American.

I get to practice steppers went first, so I missed 6 :( I saw them later and a few were pretty good. It went a lot different then usual cause we were trying a professional method, I barely noticed how unprofessional I am lol I accept myself though and thats what counts. The day ended like normal, no going out, just went home feeling that awkward emotion of missing people. I really do miss the team and I am sad I am limited to only a few hours on a Friday and this is the first time in 3 and half years that I have not been there to witness all of the step team auditions. That saddens me that I barely know the new people joining the team. I am also sad that Gibram is no longer stepping, he was really good and maybe there was something I could’ve done to help make him want to continue it.

This weekend has really been a fail. Just stuck in my house with lack of blood to exercise and friends to hang out with. I do have money to spend for once and I didn’t get to. I will go healthy shopping tomorrow hopefully with Miss if my plan works out. I am bummed that I work tomorrow though, Sundays always kinda suck cause you get the oddest or most persistent people. Who willingly goes shopping on Sunday? Crazy people.

I wish I was good at something other then Stepping or a certain Video Game. I am pretty bored of my current lifestyle and am in need of a drastic change in personnel or location.

Going to try to stay awake all night to somewhat fix my sleep schedule which has gone horribly wrong. I may post another blog if I run into any deep depression state. Good Night!

A lot.

So I found out all I need to know to make a club a PC. Holy Shit. Yes the language is intended simply cause I need to write an entire constitution and contact random teachers to be the club sponsor. To make matters worse I was clicking through our step team videos, saw some negative comments and then a related video came up. Its some random high school in Boston and they are beasts. Like their steps aren’t the greatest but their deliverance, multi-part, unique ideas are making me so jealous. Like really? You actually get paid to create your crappy steps? Idk I am pretty bummed. Maybe I’ll be better tomorrow and I’ll find a foot to start on.

#stepperproblems

Day 3. 3 Being my favorite number. :3

Playlist to this blog:

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

Naked - Dev ft. Enrique Iglesias

So its day 3 of my weight loss adventure, I am feeling good about this. I am doing everything I can to make working out fun, i.e. working out with Crystal doing workout vids, going hiking with Kimmy, talking to Tarryn about my own issues and her issues with our weight. I know I can do better but alas to eat better sometimes takes a bit more money. I get paid Friday and that shall be my health-a-thon spree at Sprouts or Trader Joe’s.

Yanie really is leaving and I am sad about that for sure but she texted me earlier today/late last night “We should have a pre valentines :( I’m sad I won’t be here for that:(” That is sorta misleading right? Well whether its just as friends or sorta kinda maybe more I will make sure she has the best early Valentine’s day ever lol Tarryn asked me what I am doing for V-Day anyway after much thought I probably will do nothing anyway. Just work then go home and hop on the computer. For some reason this all bugs me but I finally feel I am somewhat seeing clearly. Nothing is freaking me out other then havin to bus it to work/school/home tomorrow.

My stepping babies are having auditions this week. I am really sad I can’t be there but I think this is all for the better, I probably needed this break otherwise I would break. Now I have the option to sit back and gather my thoughts and dreams. I get to see them Friday or at least I am supposed to, hopefully they let/dont kick me off campus. The audition step they are doing could be better, I wish I would’ve been able to put my all into it cause I feel its missing something. Jacky mentioned that we should perform at the MLK festival next year, I actually think thats a great idea. Althought practicing over break for both of us will suck but we can so I’ll put it in my back pocket.

As for work Izamar, shes a cutie are work who is very flirtacious but she has 2 kids. As a young guy thats no bueno. Yes I sound like a dick but let’s get real I’m not going to try and wife her when she has 2 kids before 20. Anyway I am really going to try and not respond to her flirtable personality just cause I don’t wanna mislead her into thinking I’m THAT nice of a guy. We all got limits.

I went to the movies with my little brother on Thursday and that was cool. A little brotime never hurts cause we are both A-holes. He even mentioned it Saturday night when he came home kinda drunk. I stopped by his work to buy some stuff and one of his co-workers asked if I was his bestfriend lol he was like no hes my brother and they replied that we didn’t even look alike, which is highly false. I’m the fat version of him and hes the skinny version of me and we are both dicks in our sarcastic humor. It is what it is, hopefully this bond will stop him from smoking weed, he does do Hookah and drink but who can blame him with all the youngins nowadays turning 18 or 19. Just cause you CAN doesn’t mean you SHOULD.

I am following random people on Twitter now just to see if possibly they can shed insight to my own life situation in less then 140 characters.

So my weekends have been quite a bore as of late. Mostly due to my lack of friends other then Jessica or Crystal. Crystal is very busy and does not have her own car anymore so its hard to make sure we can both go out and go all the way to Tempe to party with her sisters. And Jessica… idk. Even when she isn’t busy she doesn’t text me back, she still has her BF card but that may change surprisingly. I was reading that we have different types of friends for different reasons, maybe the reason that Jess is my friend has changed. or same goes for her. I am not entirely good at making new friends so I’m just going to try and become better friends with the people I know now. I shall persevere until I reach a place where I am happy. I am not happy right now but I know I can get there. I called Marisa today after the NFC championship game. She’s dealing with another break-up with her boyfriend which is news to me, I should really be a better friend and that I shall.

Finally back to my Weight Loss Adventure. I have never been skinny, I do not know what it’s like nor do I know how my mentality will react to a good body. I may develop the biggest ego seen in AZ. Hopefully that doesn’t happen but I have a goal before March 31st, and then again in June, and finally in August. I will let you guys know if I reach them by those times. In the mean time I need workout buddies as much as possible. Moral support team go! :) Alright I should go back to bed, had to vent.