February 2012
9 posts
That song.
Somebody That I used to Know - Goyte
The chorus sounds familiar haha
“But you didn’t have to cut me off Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing And I don’t even need your love But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough No you didn’t have to stoop so low Have your friends collect your records and then change your number I guess that I...
Slip Up and Tear Up
Things to talk about, not in this order:
Diet
Yanie
Loneliness/Friends
Laziness
Hope/Motivation
Probably Mayra lol
Something else?
So I’ve been having a few soda relapses as of late. While I currently do not blame my monsters for it I blame having soda in the house along with working an 8 hours shift. I am not built for an 8 hour of customer sales/retail.
Today I also slipped up in...
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Epiphany.
A car would solve all my problems. Screw moving out, I can deal with that later, but a car now would really make my life so much easier and bearable. That shall be my top priority, along with quitting soda. I can do this! As to my friends we shall see if our friendships improve at all when that happens.
Its going down.
Complain? Nope.
So many things happened today that I can complain about, it won’t do any good though. Surprisingly I have quite a few good things going for me so let’s hope they do not screw up. Its a Redbox kinda night unfortunately, I watched Contagion, Paranormal Activity 3 which got me paranoid for the time being, and I am about to watch The Hangover Part 2, which should be great in my opinion and...
jennysuk:
Only Wanna Give It To You (Elle Varner...
January 2012
5 posts
Easy Like Sunday Mornings.
Its kind of odd seeing other people’s blogs or vlogs. We all desire someone to talk to, let alone someone to listen.
I am pulling a all nighter I think since I slept and wasted my Saturday away at home. I really wish I could of went to Crystal’s sorority ball. As gay as that may sound I just need a release from whatever funk I am in. Problemos were not having a car, not having...
A lot.
So I found out all I need to know to make a club a PC. Holy Shit. Yes the language is intended simply cause I need to write an entire constitution and contact random teachers to be the club sponsor. To make matters worse I was clicking through our step team videos, saw some negative comments and then a related video came up. Its some random high school in Boston and they are beasts. Like their...
Day 3. 3 Being my favorite number. :3
Playlist to this blog:
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
Naked - Dev ft. Enrique Iglesias
So its day 3 of my weight loss adventure, I am feeling good about this. I am doing everything I can to make working out fun, i.e. working out with Crystal doing workout vids, going hiking with Kimmy, talking to Tarryn about my own issues and her issues with our weight. I know I can do better but alas to eat...
Like Superman Did.
The soundtrack to this blog is Superman - Moi
So I unblocked Mayra and her sister on facebook. Its been long enough and I’m a stronger person now then I was then. All we have left are memories and no future. I accept that. I have fought and struggled to get to this day and age single and I think the hard times are over. I need to be a bit better in everything I do including how I handle...
December 2011
1 post
Last Minute Doubt.
Now with school being within my grasp I am second guessing my choice of being a choir teacher. I love singing but I have not been singing lately so I am doubting my skills thoroughly. I have been watching lots of ‘green’ documentaries and they are hitting that sweet spot once more at the possibility that I could be apart of that. One thing has changed since last time with that...
November 2011
1 post
Might as well tell the world.
A secret I’ve been hiding for a long time from everyone maybe even myself is that I am an avid Computer Gamer. I play World of Warcraft like its a job and am very into E-Sports, Electronic Sports for those of you who don’t know. While this secluded lifestyle is somewhat contrary to my current dream of teaching step to as many people as possible its been my enemy and dirty secret. Enemy...
August 2011
1 post
Long Time Coming
So yeah I got my heart broke by Mayra. Yah don’t need all the niddy griddy but after she moved out of Miss H’s place she went to live back in her ex-bfs house with her ex-bfs mom and brother. I was actually stupid enough to think this would be okay as long as I got to see/talk to her. Looking back I made some stupid mistakes all because I finally found or at least thought I found girl...
June 2011
1 post
Someone else's words.
“What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I sit here and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can’t hold on when I’m stretched so thin I...
May 2011
1 post
Fat Paragraph.
So the other night I had an emotional one night stand with Mayra. While the sex terminology makes me smile sex was never in the picture that night. Starting from the beginning of the day Miss Holliday was pretty late as usual and both my parents were outside my house and just as when I was young they still embarrass me, just in a different way now. As in they haven’t accomplished much in...
April 2011
4 posts
Dudley Do-Right.
Blogging Agenda.
1. No School.
2. My Easter/Long talk about whats right
3. Forgiveness
First things first, I am no longer enrolled in school for this semester. I should sign up for summer classes but that seems a bit far out since I really don’t want to go during the insane heat with my long commute. Yanie wants me to take classes with her but yeah thats really not something I would want...
Zero, Zip, Zilch, Nada.
So I have no money. This damn fraud thing that has been charging my card 39.71 every month finally bit me in the ass. I was going to deal with it sooner but it usually billed me like at the end of the month. So yesterday I had 31.XX in my account. now I have technically -$8. So I have zero money for Flagstaff. Lets see how I can do this, A few prayers would be helpful.
FML,
Sincerely,
Alex.
Standards.
First off. My manager Grant asked me yesterday during the Dance Concert if I wanted extra hours today cause I have some of the least out of all the sales associates. I accepted 1:30-5:30ish. Shortly after Miss said that we had practice today so I had to call my manager back and tell him to cancel that, last thing he said was “Alright but don’t say I didn’t offer you any”...
Distance.
Distance is a killer when it comes to friends. No matter what fruitful way of phrasing it rhythmically the outcome is the same.
I miss Marisa
I miss Tarryn
I miss Jessica
I miss Crystal
I miss Mayra
I miss Cecilia
I miss Parveen
I even miss Arielle. FML.
I miss anyone who still shows a sliver of willingness to see me again.
Being at the Gay Pride festival today with my sister only made...
October 2010
3 posts
Talking to myself.
What were you thinking??? Missing school on Monday. I am so disappointed in myself. I could have gone and seen Diviana in my first class, Jenica in my second class, Learned about Rwanda in my 3rd class, and then hang out with a lot of my friends in my chemistry lab. But no, I decided to sleep in and go to step practice (thinking they would wanna come back and work hard to get better).
Safe to say...
Forgiveness is a weakness.
A bit sour sounding huh? It’s better then any sentimental title I could come up with.
Ok it’s official, after reading Assholes Finish First by Tucker Max, I do not want a daughter as badly. (Assuming I live long enough or the world survives 2012.) No way I am ready to deal with the drama ensuing from her losing her virginity. I mean I loved both of Tucker’s books and he seems...
It's just those rainy days.
It’s a beautiful night, we’re looking for something dumb to do. Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you.
If getting married is considered dumb, then what I do must be legally retarded. So I have crossed off Alexandria from my list. She smokes. That’s a no-no. regardless of the infamous saying “If she smokes, she’ll poke” Diviana is still on the list. Things with...
September 2010
5 posts
Wake Me Up When September Ends.
Okay so I am kinda bummed that these girls giving me presumed “looks” have bfs. It’s pretty whack. But whatever I guess, more girl friends for me. When I try to explain to my friends how my attraction to girls works they always say I switch too much or I need to choose one. And they all dually note my thing for Asians and Latinas hehe While it’s mostly correct when I like a...
Say oh.
Facebook IM, “Good night Such and Such”
Your Horoscope - Today, Sept. 19, 2010
You might need to separate your business life from your personal life, Alex. Maybe you have started to develop a romantic interest in someone at work. Although part of you might be impulsive enough to test the waters with this person, try to think this option through carefully. Is it really wise to...
My 1st Speech 4 Com 225
*Puts empty glass on table and fills it halfway*
Is this glass half empty or half full? How you see it has always been up to you. You can be negative and quench our thirst for being pessimist and be left with nothing, just an empty glass in a world without refills. Or you can embrace all of the positives in life and fill your glass up with the people you care about, and doing what you enjoy.
Good...
Quick N Painless
“I see no changes, I wake up in the morning and I ask myself, is life worth living or should I blast myself?”
I felt like I needed to tell someone something. even if it is short due to my time constraints.
Life is worth living. For me at least. Someone always has it worse then me, so why am I complaining?
I complain because I know I can do better, I can have better clothes, I can...
August 2010
9 posts
Whatever Days. (It's Saturday Night)
So I didn’t bother to post anything in the past few days since nothing new happened. Usual hopeless girl hunts with imaginary signs of possibility floating about. School isn’t really what I expected but that’s due to my own faults. Also me worrying about the money required to go to school is quite the hefty amount but I can do it. I will have to sacrifice some stuff. Work being...
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Day 2 (Tuesday)
I don’t think this one will be as long as Monday’s but I’ll see what I can remember.
Tuesday:
I didn’t wake up until it was time to wake up, I kind of wanted to wake up early to vote in AZ’s primary. Oh well. I got ready and had to hurry a bit since if I missed the 10:30 bus I would have to wait a half hour for the next one. I was very annoyed with the heat of the...
Day Uno. (Monday)
So Monday and Tuesday were quite the uneventful days. But there is always a story to tell, no matter how boring. I was wondering if I should aim to get more followers. While I started this just to vent, I wouldn’t mind some appreciation for writing all these or at least find someone that goes through what I do or thinks like me. Anyways.
Monday:
So I didn’t go to sleep until 5am when...
Past few days.
So Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Time to sum it up. And I really mean sum it up since I can’t remember every little detail like I usually do.
Thursday. All I can really remember is that I was off and had step practice. I went to CB of course I saw pretty much like all of the kids from the bus stop on the previous day. Although this time I was wearing my workout pants and an old...
Wednesday.
I woke up early. Like insanely early for me. I awoke at 7am. I ended up staying up until noon then trying to sleep for an hour and a half. That didn’t work out so well, I ended up tossing and turning trying to force sleep but I guess laying down for that amount of time couldn’t have made me any more tired. I awoke to get ready for work and I was rushing, I chose my clothes and barely...
Tuesday.
So I skipped a day since I think I can only really write these when I am somewhat sad or depressed. Or really inspired. This one will be Tuesday’s even though it’s late.
Pre-Tuesday. Before I went to bed(Really what kept me from falling asleep cause my mind was racing) I was thinking of ways to teach the new steppers and how to explain step, I was specifically thinking of saying...
Monday.
“Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy? Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality”
Don’t you hate waking up and your pillow is all wet from your sweat. Arizona sometimes is just so much. I here Oregon is a good place, That’ll be my retirement place. I bet you’re wondering why I started this particular blog with the opening lines of Queen’s...
Sunday.
I slept in. But I think it’s because I kept dreaming about Paola. Just talking about her last night with Parveen. Man, I got a lot of unresolved crush issues.
After I did awake I got ready for work and I wasn’t exactly looking forward to riding my bike to work. What can you expect, its AZ. I left at 3 after setting up my playlist but forgetting to put my flavor of the week,...
Saturday.
So I decided to sleep in, although of course I awoke to check the horoscope on my phone. I think I do it to see if today would be worth waking up. Anyway, I got a text from Vanessa (Raul’s Littler Sis) about a car wash on Sunday for Miguel and Uriel, two students from my old high school, and affiliates of some good friends of mine. If only I had a car to wash, I honestly would. Then...