Day 3. 3 Being my favorite number. :3

Playlist to this blog:

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

Naked - Dev ft. Enrique Iglesias

So its day 3 of my weight loss adventure, I am feeling good about this. I am doing everything I can to make working out fun, i.e. working out with Crystal doing workout vids, going hiking with Kimmy, talking to Tarryn about my own issues and her issues with our weight. I know I can do better but alas to eat better sometimes takes a bit more money. I get paid Friday and that shall be my health-a-thon spree at Sprouts or Trader Joe’s.

Yanie really is leaving and I am sad about that for sure but she texted me earlier today/late last night “We should have a pre valentines :( I’m sad I won’t be here for that:(” That is sorta misleading right? Well whether its just as friends or sorta kinda maybe more I will make sure she has the best early Valentine’s day ever lol Tarryn asked me what I am doing for V-Day anyway after much thought I probably will do nothing anyway. Just work then go home and hop on the computer. For some reason this all bugs me but I finally feel I am somewhat seeing clearly. Nothing is freaking me out other then havin to bus it to work/school/home tomorrow.

My stepping babies are having auditions this week. I am really sad I can’t be there but I think this is all for the better, I probably needed this break otherwise I would break. Now I have the option to sit back and gather my thoughts and dreams. I get to see them Friday or at least I am supposed to, hopefully they let/dont kick me off campus. The audition step they are doing could be better, I wish I would’ve been able to put my all into it cause I feel its missing something. Jacky mentioned that we should perform at the MLK festival next year, I actually think thats a great idea. Althought practicing over break for both of us will suck but we can so I’ll put it in my back pocket.

As for work Izamar, shes a cutie are work who is very flirtacious but she has 2 kids. As a young guy thats no bueno. Yes I sound like a dick but let’s get real I’m not going to try and wife her when she has 2 kids before 20. Anyway I am really going to try and not respond to her flirtable personality just cause I don’t wanna mislead her into thinking I’m THAT nice of a guy. We all got limits.

I went to the movies with my little brother on Thursday and that was cool. A little brotime never hurts cause we are both A-holes. He even mentioned it Saturday night when he came home kinda drunk. I stopped by his work to buy some stuff and one of his co-workers asked if I was his bestfriend lol he was like no hes my brother and they replied that we didn’t even look alike, which is highly false. I’m the fat version of him and hes the skinny version of me and we are both dicks in our sarcastic humor. It is what it is, hopefully this bond will stop him from smoking weed, he does do Hookah and drink but who can blame him with all the youngins nowadays turning 18 or 19. Just cause you CAN doesn’t mean you SHOULD.

I am following random people on Twitter now just to see if possibly they can shed insight to my own life situation in less then 140 characters.

So my weekends have been quite a bore as of late. Mostly due to my lack of friends other then Jessica or Crystal. Crystal is very busy and does not have her own car anymore so its hard to make sure we can both go out and go all the way to Tempe to party with her sisters. And Jessica… idk. Even when she isn’t busy she doesn’t text me back, she still has her BF card but that may change surprisingly. I was reading that we have different types of friends for different reasons, maybe the reason that Jess is my friend has changed. or same goes for her. I am not entirely good at making new friends so I’m just going to try and become better friends with the people I know now. I shall persevere until I reach a place where I am happy. I am not happy right now but I know I can get there. I called Marisa today after the NFC championship game. She’s dealing with another break-up with her boyfriend which is news to me, I should really be a better friend and that I shall.

Finally back to my Weight Loss Adventure. I have never been skinny, I do not know what it’s like nor do I know how my mentality will react to a good body. I may develop the biggest ego seen in AZ. Hopefully that doesn’t happen but I have a goal before March 31st, and then again in June, and finally in August. I will let you guys know if I reach them by those times. In the mean time I need workout buddies as much as possible. Moral support team go! :) Alright I should go back to bed, had to vent.